urgh. ystd piano's test was like horrible?! i really forgot how to play b major. really. i played. and i screwed it up. i looked at the examiner. he looked back. and he said play again then. then i played again. i panicked really. and i screwed it up again mixing every keys together. then i looked at him again very confused look. then he came forward and show me the notes to play B major scale noe ! starting with B and D#. gosh. i was like. am i gonna fail? or was this examiner too kind to show me the notes to play? and i damn scared. and the whole exam i just shivered with so many kinds of fear. SHIT. then i played my three pieces. i can say that i played worse than before. that was normal. everyone does it. and i think im gonna like get 20/30 for one piece on average only? gosh. then later sight reading. FOUR FLATS. i could die really. why couldnt they give me a 6 flats or a 2 flats. why must it be four flats which is the most difficult?! urgh.
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